Saying good bye to Maggie…

 

Maggie guarding her domain…she loved to sit on the porch!

I am having a really bad time with this last post….I am sitting at the dinette in the rig at my seat typing this…I get up  to turn on the fan…and I look at Maggie’s seat expecting to see her…I still think she is here….and I can not explain what I feel when I realize once again she is not here with me…even tho I have had my loved ones pass away .…I was not living with them… not with them 24/7 like me & Maggie…maybe that is why I am at such a loss… feeling so alone this feeling is hardly bearable..and I talk to her all the time like she is right there…I go out the door from the rig to the house for a min…so she doesn't always go with me…I turn and say what I have always said at that time ….. I will only be out of site for a few min…I say…”you can wait I will be right back” and she knows it is ok to wait for me…I wont be long…it seams like I am carrying on our relationship just like it has been for last 9 years just like she is here….I have never been thru this…and wonder if this is normal…I have her ashes in a little box…people will think I am nuts if they see me talking to a little box…but that is what I do….

This is the Maggie I see when I open the door to enter the rig…when she has been waiting for me…

Well I think that’s all I will say about that for now…and move on to Maggie’s little funeral…and I say that because that is exactly what they made it where I took her to be cremated…I took her to a pet crematory (one vet office would do it but I was not at all comfortable how they did things) so I went with what my vet had already set up for me…

So on Friday morning daughter & S-I-L and I  went to pick Maggie up…took her to the crematory….when I walked it told them my name and they said is this little Maggie the Papillon…that was so heart warming and made me feel so welcome…one of the girls Sara…said she would come out and carry her in…I said we could do  it but  she insisted….then we met Matt who would actually work on Maggie…he told me he would clean her up and I could come and visit with her…when he came back to get me…kids couldn’t go …so I said that was very ok…I really wanted to be alone…Matt took me back to a little room…and there was my Maggie…they had covered a little tray like thing that looked just like a little casket with out a lid …with red velvet (I think it was red anyway) she was covered with some white taffeta with her new little blankie I had made for her…with a little packet of some kind with  flowers on it I think they were roses….she looked so sweet and beautiful ….then he said I will leave you alone take all the time you want….so spent my last time with my girl praying and taking to her in a beautiful setting with so much kindness and sympathy around us….it was very beautiful time and I was kind of on a high when I finally left…

Us Christmas day 2014 at the home park in Florida…our first selfie!

When I was ready to leave…I had been told we could return for her later in the afternoon to get my girl…this is a very busy place it cremates every day… and they do private cremations and that is what I wanted…because they also do our people  loved ones  as well as pets…he told me that he would wrap her in the blankie as I requested…gave me a copy of the prayer that he says over them at the time…he will cut some of her fur …by her heart …her back and ear…that will be placed in a plastic bag with poem that goes along with it…and a little silicon square with her tiny paw print…I had already picked out a little box that would hold her pic in the front of it…they were so very kind and considerate treating you with love and respect for your little fur baby…they reminded my of how the undertaker treated us when my brother died … I did not know it would be this way with my little doggie Maggie girl….I have to tell you it was a beautiful experience

As a post script…the other day I was walking up the street towards milo & lexi’s house they were on the sidewalk mama let lose of their leashes and milo took of like a streak running toward me…what a sweetie…I had a little toy bunny of Maggie’s hanging out of my pocket and he was curious as to what it was…so I took it out and showed it to him…he got ahold of an ear and tried to pull it away from me…I could not give him that one but went home and got him a toy of Maggie’s he grabbed it ran of with it…not even letting Lexi take a look see at it…Mama Terri said he has been carrying it around ever since…

Our last morning together a visit with Lexi&Milo…little did I know that less than 12 hrs. she would no longer be with me….

I love you my Maggie Girl…

HOME AGAIN….and it was over…. :(….

so once again we came home… but I  made two appointments one on Friday morning and one Sat. morning….as my daughter and son-in – law were coming from VA…he would be with Maggie if I could not do it…but he had to make arrangements at work…my sister and I were both basket cases and could not do this with out more stable support… so they were coming ….later in the affternoon again Maggie started to breath worse again….found they would leave after work that day and be here about 10 pm… so I call vet and confirmed the Friday morning appointment ….early in the morning I had taken Maggie for a last walk in her buggy…I put her bed in it the bed she still used that she had as a baby puppy …she loved riding in her “buggy’ she would dance a jig when I mentioned it or got it out..…. see how flat and laid back her” Butterfly ” ears are…they went that way when she was totally happy….they would go back and pointy when she was upset ….we went to Lexi & Milo’s house to say good by …it was so so sad but was nice at the same time… we could tell the little Milo knew some thing was up…he acted very caring and concerned…I was sitting on the steps at one point and he come up to me put his paws on my shoulder and got right in my face and just stood there staring in to my eyes…I read somewhere that dogs gave hugs with their eyes…maybe they do…but I knew that he knew something was very sad and wrong…Lexi sort of wondered around the buggy …

We we left and  walked around the neighborhood  for awhile in  the buggy ….it was about to rain so we had to stop….I was with her all the time never let her out of my sight….again early evening she started with the breathing problem…I tried to hold her several times but she seamed to want and was more comfortable in “her seat” in the rig…I sat on the sofa and talked and petted her…

Maggie with her Christmas stocking …she loved Christmas she got stocking and good people food…

2014

Then things turned into a night mare…. she was… I knew she was going to go….I called my sister..she was baby sitting her Gkids in another town could not come but she stayed on the phone with me…I am not going to go into detail about this …but I was scared and a mess…. I guess it did not take long maybe 30 min my sister thought that was a time frame….. me I do not know…but to me it was what can I say seamed like forever… it seamed like years… by far the worst 30 min. of my life…I do not want to remember this..even tho I will never forget…. I am not going to talk about this part…I will just say Maggie did not have and easy time at least to me it seamed that way to me…  (just before all this happened like I mean like 10 min…Lexi, Milo and their mama came by…they came in the rig ..Maggie was laying in her seat….she got down and went over and greeted them…now after I know what was to happen in only minuets …I still cant believe she did that…that is how well dogs hide what is really going on with them and their little bodies)     …and then it was over.She passed to the Rainbow Bridge in her seat with me holding her….

I was hysterical and did not know what to do…went out on the sidewalk and finally got neighbors …. these two angel mama’s of Maggie’s friends were the ones I have been talking about…they came… being here for us… anyway it was around 7pm my vet was closed…they have a different vet that had a tech on until around 9pm so they called them…after it was all said and done we took Maggie in her bed (not the puppy bed)the newer bed  she rides in while we travel and her new blankie I made that very morning to them and they kept her cool until morning ….my first night without My Maggie Girl….is to sad to share…

Maggie with her new Christmas toy….

She loved toys!

I will have the end next post…. the flavor of my post at this time  are not the best… but I am doing this for me…hopefully I will have more up beat posts sometime soon…just pass over these if you don’t want to read about sadness…I would not blame you one bit..not sure I could read if it wasn’t me & Maggie…and our story..

blessings to all G&M

What was next…..

Please know that this is a sad heartbreaking story and it is ok if you want to pass up the next few post…but this is something I have to do for me…I need to get this out…so sorry if it upsets you …

A happy day!

The rest of the day she was somewhat active but not her usual bouncing self..I was watching her breathing and it was not changing any during the day….she did eat a little more food …the people food…I thought by that time she can have anything she wanted  and I was sorry for not giving her people food that she loved…she was always looking for crumbs …sweetheart…..at some point I started to call my family members…my sister first …as she was the closest to Maggie…and Maggie loved her and uncle Ron ….my kids … my daughter and son in law were really close to as she stayed with them for her first two weeks until I could go get her…and son in law was the first person to bond with her…but I won’t go into all that stuff right now…

Word spread around the neighborhood…and she was seeing and reacting as normal to her friends….everyone was so sad and crying….because Maggie is a very sweet lovable baby girl….and everyone loved her….

Maggie in her seat…checking on her Mama…

I am not sure at this point when it started but maybe late afternoon early evening….her respirations started to get worse…by the time we went to bed it was not very good….I was awake all night…she did sleep some ..I think I kept her awake shinning my little flash light on her…or touching her telling her I love her…at midnight time for her pill and she would not take it even with the people food…but did drink…at eight in the morning  I called the vet and they thought it was time for her to go…so got appointment for around 9 this was just 24 hrs that I first learned she was so sick…so picked up my sister and we went…and by the time we got there…she was breathing much better she had rallied…they had everything ready..doc came in we talked…I ask for another exam and she did… I wanted to see x-ray again so my sister could see…and we did that…I just guess I want more conformation I was doing the right thing.…this is a very hard dissection to make…all most beyond what  your mind can comprehend…after the exam ..vet said she felt Maggie was about the same as the day before…in her breathing…I had told how she was in the night how bad her breathing was…and how much better it was now…they were still ready but after much taking and crying I ended up taking her home again…after she got a shot of steroid…and we went home…I want to say how very loving and caring this vet office is …Baker Animal Clinic…Maggie has been coming here since her first puppy check at age 8wks when I got her…I cant say enough about how good they were to us and took so much time with us…I probably have a couple more post to make…I really don’t want this b log to be a downer but as I said I have to do it for me…I am sure there will be more good coming I might be taking a trip to the middle of the state…..we will see…anyway thanks for looking and come back soon…G&still maggie

where do I begin…. :(……

 

Maggie

July 13 2006 –July 9 2015

On the morning of July 8 2015 I learned that my Maggie girl was not long to be with me in this world….she had cancer that had spread to her lungs..starting at some other point in her little body…at this time a mute point it made no difference …they showed me the x-ray her little lungs had many many little tumors…at that time she told me it was terminal…and Maggie  did not have long…and offered to euthanize that day…well I was in total shock that was not an option for me at that time…I think maybe she did not explain enough to me just how sick my baby was…don’t get me wrong…these people at this office were so kind…

Up to the night before she showed no signs of real sickness….for about a week before she had slowed down  in her eating ….other wise she was ok….still having fun and seeing her doggie fiends she has here….then on Tues. the 7th she did not eat at all…and in the middle of the night she wanted a drink of water I put her down and she had trouble making her back legs work stumbling around a little …I went to pick her up but then she walked over and got a drink…I put her back in bed and was so worried I just kept watching her the rest of the night…getting very little sleep…at one point in time she did cry out when I went to pick her up…so I was careful…and she never did it again…

Maggie looking for her Christmas presents (balls)

2014

In the morning called the vet and I took her around 11 …got right in…she check her all over …spine..hips …back and when she check her belly she tensed up somewhat…so x-rays were done…I waited…then she came in and said …I want to  show you the x-rays…showed me her little lungs….told me all those little white dots I was seeing were tumors…that she was not going to get better when I ask…by this time I was crying ….she said her time was short…soon…I did not understand how soon…then she offered that they could do the euthanize that day…I think not sure I screamed NO…I remember this woman is so young to be a vet…does she know what she is talking about…guess they call that denial…she told me also that her respirations were a little rapid…which I could see… but not as bad as it was in the night  she then said a steroid might  help…so we went with the pills…that might work and might not…work meaning she could have up to a couple weeks….

So we took our pills and went home… it was left that I could  call at any time ..we got home just in time to see Chloe Maggie’s friend and her mama…standing in front of our house…I think they were put there by God…just when we needed someone…I was crying…we talked for a long time she was crying…you know how it goes…

I took Maggie in the house fixed her some people food and got that and the pill in her….the one and only one she would take it….I will continue this on next post…

thanks for looking and come back soon blessings to all  G&M

Rest in Peace …my beautiful Maggie…

I want to just say hello to all my family and friends... To let you know I have a heavy heart when I tell you that I lost my beloved Maggie the Papillon princes last evening July 9 2015.... I found out just the day before that she had that dreaded disease cancer... and after that she went downhill fast just a little over 24 hours and she was at the Rainbow Bridge.... Sometime in the future I will make a blog post about this ….for me…but anyone will be welcome to read it…not sure what is going to happen now… And for those angels my neighbors who were there for us in our time of great need thank you from the bottom of our hearts... And for my family there for me both in presence and in support with your messages  we can't let you know enough how much we appreciate it... bless you all Donna&stillMaggie 

LEAVING….

After we left….

We turned right on US 19 and headed to Erie PA…US 19 also known as Peach St. in Erie is one of the main streets there…lots of shopping and eating along this RT…also it will lead you right to the Mill Creek Mall…if you want to do meg shopping….

We were not interested in any shopping what we wanted to find were a few Geocaches…this one below is at Best Buy..named BB…could stand for the store or Big tree or Big bush as the hind specified …you figure it out…you can see the back end of the VW bug Geek squad car….

And here is a pic of Maggie patiently waiting while I look for the illusive cache sometimes I have a difficult time seeing things in trees and bushes…because of the cataracts…she waits a lot…but is ready to go when I say we are going geocaching …runs to the door waiting to get her leash on …what a sweetie…

Before we found the BB cache …we stopped at WM looking for one there…pic below is that one..it was what they call a PG…park & grab…easy find…not much looking…

Below is the BB cache…you would think it would be easy to see bright blue in color…but this took me awhile…looked for a couple others but could not find any more ….but we will go back there for a day trip as there are a ton to look for….a nice day trip and besides they have my fav. fast food…Chick-fil-a ..not one close to Greenville….

That’s it thanks for looking and come back soon…blessings to all G&M

SEASONAL PARK….

This campground is where the RV Techs spend their summers…near Erie PA…you have it all… country living at the foot of the Allegany Mountains and close to the city…at the end of this loop I where they are located…a few seasonal sites in the woods…

As I walked around the cg …I could see there were certain areas that were for seasonal sites…below is one that I liked…I took a few pics of ones that were landscaped nice…

I think this is my over all favorite ..located at the end of a row..with trees and wooded area beside it…a private little oasis …perfect I could see me here for the season….

This was another seasonal …it was very striking with the woods for a back drop but not as private…so striking because of how well manicured it was…very well taken care of….I did get to talk to the man who lived here..he said him and his wife full timed for 10 years until he got tired of “pulling” as he put it…They still spend winters in FL but drive there…

And I did see one park model…I could see me living in one of these also….when the time comes….with a small rig to travel in…I could spend winters in Florida or other warmer states with a screen room for extra room…then I summer at a place like this…from what I have seen and heard it is very very reasonable rate and the will keep your spot over the 6mo. winter for only $160…

And the rest of the story…

Well I am going to wrap this post up today 7/1/15…I usually start a few and then work on them and post….I have to return to Erie today  my roof is still leaking..I was so bummed out..my neighbor came over and took a look..he was pushing on the caulk with his thumb around the sky light cover and when he did water squished out..so he put some duck tape in that area and some between that and the edge of the roof ..and it has rained since then (raining as I type this … I kept on watching it in side and thought maybe it helped but then last night I was not so sure…I think I am beginning to see things..it is dark and dreary …part of the camp ground at Shenango is closed… and one of the loops is under water…this is where Liz and I camped out the last two years as she was passing thru on her way to New England….I think you can read about it at this link

https://www.facebook.com/ShenangoLakeUSACE/photos/a.173808669300827.48821.147508681930826/1102248443123507/?type=1&theater

Well I better get moving need to be there at 1pm …thanks for looking and come back soon blessings to all G&M